Thoughts

Three years ago I wrote the following:

2 weeks ago...

...I was being admitted to the hospital
...my life was about to change forever
...my love for Nick was about to soar through the roof
...I was about to experience the purest miracle of creation
...I was about to gain an undeniable testimony of eternal families
...my understanding of a "mother's love" was about to be known
...my restless nights were about to begin
...my heart was about to be softened
...my outlook on life was about to change
...my desire for many more children was about to surface
...a sweet little girl was about to wrap Nick and I around her finger
...I was about to be someones sole source for survival
...my prayers were about to be answered
...my daydreams were about to be reality
...my strongest emotions were about to be shaken
...the greatest joy I have ever known was about to look into my eyes and melt my heart forever

Fast forward 3 years and I find myself with these same feelings all over again. It's truly a wonder that your heart can grow five times its size the moment your infant is placed in your arms. It didn't just realign it's love departments, making less room for Amelia and new room for Bennett, it truly grew. It created more space as I watched Amelia take her new baby brother in her arms and her eyes lit up as bright as the sun, it continued to grow as I watched Nick hold in his arms his son who will carry on his name, and it grew even more as I rocked my babe in the wee hours of the night, nurturing his every need. I've found myself wondering how our bodies can house so much love without bursting at the seams. How can my heart continue to grow with each new baby? I guess it just does, it's absolutely incredible, and I am so fortunate to experience it.